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tending a garden in a graveyard
Trying to make a human is a lot like gardening. Especially if you’ve never gardened in your life. Sure, you’ve had the odd houseplant on...
cessab
3 hours ago8 min read
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courage, or fearlessness, or fear and its absence
I used to be fearless. My mom says I couldn’t sit still in her lap as a toddler, and was always wandering away into the desert to bathe...
cessab
Nov 30, 20212 min read
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suburbs
My parents when they moved from the desert to the forest moved into a suburb of the city our country has decided is the center. Suburbs...
cessab
Oct 18, 20214 min read
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ancestry and solidarity
A couple of weeks ago I woke up to something I very rarely see - my father’s country’s name in my Instagram feed and in the news....
cessab
Jul 28, 20214 min read
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a letter to anxiety
Dear you, You’re here today. You have been in the background for a while but you got so impatient that I wasn’t really acknowledging you...
cessab
Jun 21, 20212 min read
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a lineage of sexuality
I am 6..ish? 6ish. I sit in a play treehouse on the playground, hidden. I am with my childhood best friend. She has chestnut brown hair,...
cessab
Jun 10, 20218 min read
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on screens and creatures
This morning, I awoke to the first really warm morning in D.C. I played quiet music from my phone as I slowly made my breakfast and...
cessab
Apr 28, 20212 min read
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a story about not calling the police
**content warning: this entry includes the mention of police violence and the murder of a young person** I was once, like many white or...
cessab
Apr 26, 20214 min read
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on getting hurt and taking time
My partner got me roller skates for Christmas. In the midst of the pandemic, I had been craving learning new, and especially athletic...
cessab
Mar 25, 20216 min read
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on toxicity
We are continually learning, as people, as a culture, that relationships can be harmful and toxic. That bad ones can be so bad for you...
cessab
Jan 28, 20214 min read
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on magic
Most of 2020 has been muted. I’ve felt like I’ve been only half conscious for most of the past year and a half. The pandemic has made me...
cessab
Jan 1, 20214 min read
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on skin
My skin is tan, which is a combination of brown and white. Some people see it as white and others as brown, which is not how colors work...
cessab
Dec 8, 20207 min read
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a poem about chairs that is not really about chairs
I don’t sit in chairs like chairs would like me to Or rather, I don’t sit in chairs how the designer of the chair would like me to My...
cessab
Dec 5, 20201 min read
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on education and worth
I loved college. I loved the feeling college gave me, the freedom it gave me. I loved wandering through an environment entirely built for...
cessab
Dec 3, 20209 min read
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on missing
Things I miss, in no particular order: Moderately crowded marketplaces at Christmas and farmer’s markets on sunny weekend mornings...
cessab
Dec 1, 20204 min read
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on the productivity of hope, and baby deer
We are in difficult days. We are in the midst of global pandemic, a racial justice uprising, a divided country, a crucial election, an...
cessab
Aug 30, 20204 min read
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on being mixed (part one of many)
The other night a white friend of mine posted a rant on their instagram story that the term “nonwhite” is racist because it assumes white...
cessab
Jul 15, 202010 min read
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on finding pleasure in the revolution
Inspired by the text PLEASURE ACTIVISM by adrienne maree brown (which I highly recommend - It’s been getting me out of bed lately) and...
cessab
Jul 2, 20202 min read
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on riots
let it burn let screams that have gone hoarse from fight after fight and death after death and injustice after injustice finally be heard...
cessab
May 30, 20202 min read
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on honoring another person's truth
The other day a friend of mine who works in a large tech company asked my opinion about something. They recently implemented a policy for...
cessab
May 27, 20202 min read
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